Dreams and Eating

I have been having the CRAZIEST dreams lately. Last night I dreamt my friend Jenna lived in this deserted desert cave, and to get to her cave house we had to ride some crazy bulls to get there. Their horns would scrap against the steep rock walls that lead to the cave house, along the way there were other bulls that we had to try to avoid that would attack us if we didn't go the right way.

Another thing, I know how important it is to eat, I have been trying my hardest to battle this morning sickness business, and so far I'm losing. I've lost almost 8 pounds, and everything I try to eat I feel like Im forcing myself. Everything tastes different, nothing apeals to me anymore, and I get grossed out by the smell of almost everything. Even Thanksgiving food wasn't the same for me. The other night I wanted disco fries (fries with gravy and cheese) OMG my mouth started watering but of course we didn't have the stuff to make them wahh wahhh. Today I got my self out of the house to Trader Joes and Whole Foods to get some snacks. I ended up leaving with a bag of fries, yogurt, beef borg soup, and mini baguettes. I ate, but I still feel starving. This baby is literally sucking the life out of me. Every morning when I am getting sick I say "why are you doing this to me?" Then I start thinking the worst, CAN I DO THIS???? I know this too shall pass, I'm just going through changes. Hopefully it gets better with time.

In the mean time, on the bright side Brett and I got to decorate our tree together, our last solo tree as a couple.

Complete 180

As you can tell my life has made a complete 180.  I went from posting about going to Las Vegas, working on my alcohol tolerance, and wine tasting, to posting about 3D ultra sounds, and due dates.  Don't judge me, in the event of those postings, I have completely changed as well.  I no longer am working on my alcohol tolerance for Vegas, or wine tasting, instead I am preparing to give birth in late July.  I stopped all of that behavior 11/15/11, the day I found out. 

      I'd also like to add that I absolutely HATE political science.  My teacher is arrogant, cocky, and doesn't care.  I don't feel like I'll be getting a good grade in his class either.  At this point in time I do not care.  He can take his PhD and shove it.  Right now I am supposed to be reading about Economic Policy, but got torn away to blog.  It's the last chapter that I have to read, and I don't have any urge to do it.  However, in the back of my mind I will end up reading it before 11pm tonight because this grade will stick with me when it comes to transferring and getting my degree, and I still have that dream.  I just want it to be winter break so I can get the nursery ready, find out the sex, and get my apt babied out.  I want to go into full time mommy mode, but unfortunately that's impossible at the moment.  I want to be happy, and not have to worry about grades, or if I qualify for Medi Cal or not because I made a little over $15k this year, own a vehicle, my race.  Its pathetic.  Wish me luck.........When and if I get approved that will ease the emotion I am facing at the moment.  Trying not to stress, but now its not about me, if the life inside I am worrying about and just want everything to be ok.

Christmas Tree Ideas?

      I would love to have a real tree, Brett's intrigued by the the pre-lit fake tree he saw at Target.  But recently I saw this totally cool tree make out wood scraps (how ironic).  It not your traditional tree but I love it. 


      What do you do for your Christmas tree?



Black Friday Mo Money Mo Problems

American's are insane. Why do we always want more? All I wanted to do was replace the camera that Brett threw away with a new Nikon L105 I couldn't miss not buying a camera that was only $99.99, because I am poor this was a good deal. We thought 'oh there won't be a line at Target’; we assumed that hungry gobbling consumers would go out of town to Best Buy, or the mall. HAHAH!!!! That was funny, the line for Target stretched almost one mile. They were letting thirty people in at the time, with a four second break in between each crowd of thirty. It was crazy, this was the first ever black Friday event that I have ever been a part of; we only waited a total of 15 minutes, which included finding the item, and purchasing it. So time wise everything was fine. What was pure insanity was the number of people wheeling out carts filled with TV's and other big ticket items. There was a child in front of me that kept jumping up and down, and hugging his mom. I thought to myself this kid's never loved his mom so much in his life, why? Because he was going to get an iPod touch...
In all, I think it’s utterly pathetic that most Americans revolve their lives around material items. Yes you might say well weren't you part of it? Yes I was, but my camera is my replacement camera, I need a camera to capture future moments of my baby once he or she is born. To justify my reasoning, here you go: I have family, and a lot of friends that are out of town and out of state, and would like to send photos once my baby is here. I have it for memories, not for the purpose of 'oh look what I have and you don't'. I am thankful that growing up I never had anything nice, so I never knew what it was like to have these types of items. I am even more thankful that I carry this value with me through life. I know, that I will try my hardest to instill in my child growing up that it's not important to have materialistic items like iphones, and 73' tv's, its just not necessary. One can have a few valuables that are appreciated, but once the mass comsumer kicks in, it's a material item. Remember the days when a tv was just a tv with out all of the bells and whistels? People may call me old school or just a plain whack job, but this is what I believe in. In the end, be thankful for what you have, and remember where you came from and why you are even here.

The Beatle's said it best:

"Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you canNo need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one"

The item bolded is on purpose.