Kitties

My little babies cuddling together. I just got the iPad blogger app, now let's see if I can actually post from the pad now.

This Song Melts my Heart

This is going to be out first dance song. "Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart"

Realizations

      It wasn't until this week that I realized the love that I have for the Mr. aka Brett.  Amidst the daily chaos of work, school, and everything else one encounters on the daily, I had put my relationship aside.  When I did that I also put my feelings aside.  I didn't take his feelings into consideration.  I always put what I wanted, or what needed to be done first.  Something in my head clicked, and if I ever want this man to even want to marry me, I need to show him that I can take the time to not worry about the little things going on, that I need to slow down and focus on us with what little time we have together.
      With Brett being in the kitchen at the restaurant from 11am to midnight he is uncommunicable, and me being consumed with nine units of school strapped for time, we both lost communication with eachother.  So when we did have time for each other, it was basically just a re-cap of our day hi-how was your day-good-good-we have this bill due-need gas-groceries-can you please fold your laundry kind of conversation.  Our communication died, and our end of the night exhausted brains had little spark to put energy into conversations.
      The other day I was going through my closet and came across some old school work from my sociology class back from 2006.  I found an assignment I had written a response to titled "Marriage and Communication".  I had written about how important communication is in a marriage.  That couples should always be on the same page, that married couples are a union, but with individualistic traits.  Although Brett and I are not yet married, or even engaged, I still need to look at our relationship as a whole, and as a union.  And that's exactly what I have been doing lately.  I do love my independence when I have it, I enjoy that roll. but I also enjoy being someone's other half.  I can always rely on him being my other half. 
      With my effort of making a change in my life, and slowing down, we are able to enjoy each other's company with out the rush.  The past week has been amazing.  I know every couple wants the outside world to think their relationship is perfect, when behind the scenes it's not.  And those who make it seem like their relationship is above all, are the one's that have the most problems. 
      With that being said, I also came to the realization that I had out of the ball park expectations on wedding rings.  I believe that I was socialized to believe that wedding rings should be nothing less than two karots, or that it has to be a "rock".  Well, living on three figure checks, karot(s) are not possible.  Well it could be possible if the guy wants to make payments every month for the next twenty years, but I would rather have our money go toward something that we could indefinitly show for and have together, a house.  I realized that karots don't symbolize the level of love that one has for the other.  Brett from the beginning saw me as a high standard/maintenance kind of girl that expects top of the line, nothing less.  That is the case in some aspects, but when it comes to wedding rings, I've decided those things don't matter.  The only reason I can think of as to why people want karots is the awe factor.  They don't want other people to think they're poor, or too cheap to buy a good ring.  In my case, I really don't care what others think of a ring that I could possibly have in the future.  All that matters to me is the love inside.
      Now wedding dresses, thats a different story!

iPad

      Well I got my new iPad and so far I feel like I'm definitely catching up to 2011.  It's nice.  The only things I have found so far is that it doesn’t support flash, therefore I can’t do my homework on Aplia for my Business Law class.  The second problem is that I can’t post to Blogger!!! AHHH!!!  I can only view blogs, when I try posting it gives me an error code from Blogger.  Oh well I'm sure that may be worked out one day.  On the upside I am so enjoying my new well deserved toy :).
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Pumpkins and Love

      Today I got to go to the pumpkin patch with Brett.  I find it funny that when we go places to get stuff for ourselves, we end up picking out each others items.  I picked his pumpkin, and he picked mine.  I always realize after the fact.  I guess it shows how in tune we are with what the other likes.  We do that with clothing too, even more wierd.  We got to spend the greater part of 3 hours together today.  We also were able to go to lunch too, where I saw the first I've ever seen touch screen soda machine!!!!  Every soda has like 4 additional flavors to add to the soda!  It was crazy, it's a freakin soda revolution.  Then 4 o'clock came around, and here I am at work.  Waiting for the clock to tick and tock by so I can go back to my love, and carve our pumpkins.  I love you Brett, even though one of my last posts were about you being lazy :).

Here are the pics from our day together.  My nose looks obnoxiously big, I swear it not.

The Men Running my Life

      Yes, I am controlled by two over protective, jealous, and needy men.  My two kitties!  Rocky, and Porkchop.  Rocky is three and Pork's only 6 months.  Rocky is used to being alone, Pork doesn't know what being alone is.  Sometimes I wonder what the lil guy would do if he were alone all day.  To me, I think that he could possibly have the first kitty panic/anxiety attack.  No joke.  The lil guy follows me everywhere.  He'll be sleeping, I'll get up for the bathroom and there he is right at my feet. 
      I love my kitties, and it's nice to know that they unconditionally love me back, without me they wouldn’t have the amazing life they live.  At times I’m totally jealous of how they get to sleep all day, no fair.


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