Dreams and Eating

I have been having the CRAZIEST dreams lately. Last night I dreamt my friend Jenna lived in this deserted desert cave, and to get to her cave house we had to ride some crazy bulls to get there. Their horns would scrap against the steep rock walls that lead to the cave house, along the way there were other bulls that we had to try to avoid that would attack us if we didn't go the right way.

Another thing, I know how important it is to eat, I have been trying my hardest to battle this morning sickness business, and so far I'm losing. I've lost almost 8 pounds, and everything I try to eat I feel like Im forcing myself. Everything tastes different, nothing apeals to me anymore, and I get grossed out by the smell of almost everything. Even Thanksgiving food wasn't the same for me. The other night I wanted disco fries (fries with gravy and cheese) OMG my mouth started watering but of course we didn't have the stuff to make them wahh wahhh. Today I got my self out of the house to Trader Joes and Whole Foods to get some snacks. I ended up leaving with a bag of fries, yogurt, beef borg soup, and mini baguettes. I ate, but I still feel starving. This baby is literally sucking the life out of me. Every morning when I am getting sick I say "why are you doing this to me?" Then I start thinking the worst, CAN I DO THIS???? I know this too shall pass, I'm just going through changes. Hopefully it gets better with time.

In the mean time, on the bright side Brett and I got to decorate our tree together, our last solo tree as a couple.

Complete 180

As you can tell my life has made a complete 180.  I went from posting about going to Las Vegas, working on my alcohol tolerance, and wine tasting, to posting about 3D ultra sounds, and due dates.  Don't judge me, in the event of those postings, I have completely changed as well.  I no longer am working on my alcohol tolerance for Vegas, or wine tasting, instead I am preparing to give birth in late July.  I stopped all of that behavior 11/15/11, the day I found out. 

      I'd also like to add that I absolutely HATE political science.  My teacher is arrogant, cocky, and doesn't care.  I don't feel like I'll be getting a good grade in his class either.  At this point in time I do not care.  He can take his PhD and shove it.  Right now I am supposed to be reading about Economic Policy, but got torn away to blog.  It's the last chapter that I have to read, and I don't have any urge to do it.  However, in the back of my mind I will end up reading it before 11pm tonight because this grade will stick with me when it comes to transferring and getting my degree, and I still have that dream.  I just want it to be winter break so I can get the nursery ready, find out the sex, and get my apt babied out.  I want to go into full time mommy mode, but unfortunately that's impossible at the moment.  I want to be happy, and not have to worry about grades, or if I qualify for Medi Cal or not because I made a little over $15k this year, own a vehicle, my race.  Its pathetic.  Wish me luck.........When and if I get approved that will ease the emotion I am facing at the moment.  Trying not to stress, but now its not about me, if the life inside I am worrying about and just want everything to be ok.

Christmas Tree Ideas?

      I would love to have a real tree, Brett's intrigued by the the pre-lit fake tree he saw at Target.  But recently I saw this totally cool tree make out wood scraps (how ironic).  It not your traditional tree but I love it. 


      What do you do for your Christmas tree?



Black Friday Mo Money Mo Problems

American's are insane. Why do we always want more? All I wanted to do was replace the camera that Brett threw away with a new Nikon L105 I couldn't miss not buying a camera that was only $99.99, because I am poor this was a good deal. We thought 'oh there won't be a line at Target’; we assumed that hungry gobbling consumers would go out of town to Best Buy, or the mall. HAHAH!!!! That was funny, the line for Target stretched almost one mile. They were letting thirty people in at the time, with a four second break in between each crowd of thirty. It was crazy, this was the first ever black Friday event that I have ever been a part of; we only waited a total of 15 minutes, which included finding the item, and purchasing it. So time wise everything was fine. What was pure insanity was the number of people wheeling out carts filled with TV's and other big ticket items. There was a child in front of me that kept jumping up and down, and hugging his mom. I thought to myself this kid's never loved his mom so much in his life, why? Because he was going to get an iPod touch...
In all, I think it’s utterly pathetic that most Americans revolve their lives around material items. Yes you might say well weren't you part of it? Yes I was, but my camera is my replacement camera, I need a camera to capture future moments of my baby once he or she is born. To justify my reasoning, here you go: I have family, and a lot of friends that are out of town and out of state, and would like to send photos once my baby is here. I have it for memories, not for the purpose of 'oh look what I have and you don't'. I am thankful that growing up I never had anything nice, so I never knew what it was like to have these types of items. I am even more thankful that I carry this value with me through life. I know, that I will try my hardest to instill in my child growing up that it's not important to have materialistic items like iphones, and 73' tv's, its just not necessary. One can have a few valuables that are appreciated, but once the mass comsumer kicks in, it's a material item. Remember the days when a tv was just a tv with out all of the bells and whistels? People may call me old school or just a plain whack job, but this is what I believe in. In the end, be thankful for what you have, and remember where you came from and why you are even here.

The Beatle's said it best:

"Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you canNo need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one"

The item bolded is on purpose.

Thar She Blows

I am starting to experience my bout with morning sickness. Not a great way to start out my day before I take a political science test.

Cravings

Today I woke up with my first craving, orange juice. I don't even remember the last time I had orange juice! I told my baby daddy I wanted some orange juice the second I woke up, without any questions or fight Brett went to the store and came back with the juice I was craving. So lucky to have a great man in my life that is willing to take care of us this early on. He even brought home our first pack of new born diapers. Aweee!!! That means he skimmed the baby isle in Target, alone. To me that's a real man, already making preparations for his baby and taking some of the first steps as a father. It shows me the initiative that he has, and the drive to be prepared which means a lot to me.

Thankful

Today I am thankful for:

Being alive.
Not faking the happiness in my relationship like a lot of people in this town.
Having a roof over my head supported by us, not parents.
Having emotionally supportive family.
Most of all I am thankful to have Brett in my life, I know he will be the most amazing father to our unborn child.

I love you Brett!!!!

What a day

New discoveries. Wine Wednesday will be no longer. At least until next year.

Blogging?

I need help, and have a few questions. I have noticed that a lot of the blogs I follow religiously have tons of followers. For a while I didn't have any followers, until recently I got one, which was a monumental blogging moment for me. Yay! Thanks Carly. I would love to be able to reach more than a one person audience. It's not that I'm out for the numbers, but it would be nice to read comments from other people and what not. In no way am I complaining, just something I have been observing since I've entered the blog world last year.
Anyway, my question to you bloggers is how long did it take to get a "fan base" or whatever we call it? Following? I honestly do NOT like the word follow. I am not a follower in a literal sense, but I love being a blog member and keeping up with my blogees. If anyone out there besides me reads this, please fill me in with your two cents.

ps: Wine Wednesday coming up 11/16. Should be a good time, the bf is going to come!

Kitties

My little babies cuddling together. I just got the iPad blogger app, now let's see if I can actually post from the pad now.

My Friday and Saturday Nights

     

      My Friday and Saturday nights now consist of blogging, instagram, and taking self portraits.  What has my life come to?  The evidence in purely shown below here. Sure there are many things that I could be putting my mind to, but I choose to blog, and play with my iPad.  Lately, my homework load hasn't been as heavy, so for once I've come across some leisure time.  On the plus side, my iPad is a new frontier for me, something that awaited me.  Every day I learn something new on this thing.  Friday night for instance, there’s a karaoke application.  The iPad amplifies your voice, and plays through the speakers on a stereo.  It's probably one of the most awesome things I discovered this weekend.  And, those who know me know I like putting on a show, and covering songs with my voice. 
       Speaking of karaoke, I'll never forget my first karaoke experience "oh Micky your so fine" by Toni Basil, Trancas Steakhouse in Napa.  I was so nervous, but once I got in front of the crowd every thing changed.  As the music came on I had a choice, sing, or punk out.  I sang, and as the words came out of my mouth, the crowd suddenly seemed to disappear.  Everything was black, and all I could see were the words on the screen (not that I needed them).  Suddenly I felt natural, I felt like I belonged in front of people.  The best part about my performance was at the end of the song the audience clapped their hands together in sync with the song "oh Micky you so fine you so fine you blow my mind hey Mickey (clap, clap, clap) hey Mickey (clap, clap, clap)".  For once in my life what I was doing felt right, because I enjoyed it.  In that moment of time I felt complete, nothing else mattered to me, and I realized where my heart is.
      The biggest lesson that I learned from my first karaoke experience is that, if I can get up in front of people I don't even know, sing, risk being made fun of, or booed off stage, I can do anything.  It takes a lot of courage, and guts to karaoke, I don't care what anyone says, the first time is invigorating, and refreshing.  Ever need a conquering confidence boost?  Enjoy cloud nine? Go karaoke, I highly recommend it.  

      Here I present what happens to me when I have free time.  All of this photos are taken with Instagram, another great application for Apple.

                                                            

                                                               Friday Night at my Dad's

In hopes of spotting stars during the Napa Valley Film Festival this weekend 

(freezing in Napa, hence the trench)

Porkchop Lovin 

Instagram Self Lovin 

                                                        Cab Stained Lip Last Weekend

ps: stay tuned for Wine Wednesday coming up 11/16/11.

Bye FB

      I deleted my Facebook a while back, I was sick of it.  I was tired of overestimating other people's happiness and underestimating their negativity, making me feel like my life wasn't enough.  According to people on FB, I needed to make more money, or have better cars, clothes, material items etc.  The FB world to me was a competition and I was trying to be on top.  I no longer feel that way anymore thanks to absence of FB, but recently after I got my new iPad, I thought I'd give it a go one more time.  That lasted a mere two weeks.  I would see posts, and certain postings would stick in my head, and the image would be there all night, and I could already see the old traits coming back.  Yet again, I had to deactivate.  I can't believe I even gave it another chance.      
      Now I am  FB free and I like it.  I will stick to Instagram, and Blogger.com, my two little babies that stimulate my creative side, and not my competitive side.  I am now free of the poison that FB administers with every log in.

      Here are some funny spots I just Googled about the poison of FB.

This is ridiculous, what it has come to

Last but not least

Article on FB

One Can Only Take so Much Josh Groban

      This post is dedicated to Josh Groban.  A guy from the mid west, with a thing for italian opera.  I would have never known who you are Josh if it were not for my boss adding all of your tracks to our work sound track.  Every day I am coerced to hear your voice.  Even on my days off you play within my mind.  Today I was welcomed with your track "Machine" as I walked into the lobby.  Josh, I feel like you and I have a tight bond that neither you nor I will ever put forth.  We will never know each other, and for all I know you will probably never read this.  I ask you, Josh, please make some new songs that attract my boss's interest, that way I can have new music, and won't get tired of you.  I am giving you a chance to do this before we come to hating terms.

Wine Wednesday: Part Sept

    Thanks for tuning into this week's Wine Wednesday.  Right now is literally the BEST time to be in Napa.  Whether your wine tasting or just soaking up the sun, Fall has it all in Napa.  The vines are transitioning colors from green to yellow, red, and orange, basically the whole fall color spectrum.  The other amazing part of Fall is the peak of tourist season is now contracting, and it's a lot more quiet around these parts (thank you God).  Don't get me wrong I love my job, and enjoy doing it, but the break from constant requests is nice. 
      Today I am featuring Sequoia Grove Vineyard.  One of my previous posts was dedicated to a private party held there, but I drank whatever they had, I didn’t necessarily taste, I was just drinking.  Today I actually tasted different wines and got to experience an array of flavor ranging from fruity whites, to spicy reds.  The facility has beautiful grounds, guests are welcome to bring picnic items and eat outside, as long as they taste, or purchase wine. 
     My favorite wine is Sequoia's 2007 Cabernet Sauvignon, Napa Valley, Stagecoach Vineyard, so smooth, and just delicious.  I also got a copy of the "flavor wheel" now I can reference to it. And get to know my flavor pallet with words instead of saying 'oh it’s good'.  I'll be able to describe the wine according to my senses.  I would also like to add that today was the last day of harvest for Sequoia, so I was able to watch some of the wine making process.  Crush was in the air, and it smelled good. 

Peace and Wine,

2007 is the best year of wine